Is it really January 11, 2010!! Aren't we all supposed to be dead or maybe driving around cars in the sky?!? I still can't believe it is the year 2010. But, I have a whole year to get used to it!
I thought of deleting this blog when I logged in this morning (after not logging in for over a year and half) to read a friend of mine's blog and comment on her amazing mommy tips! But instead, I hit "View Blog" and got to go on a little trip down memory lane. Even though I have written very little on this blog, it was so neat to go back and read those posts. I remember those days, but reading what I had written brought back so many memories that I wouldn't have been able to conjur up myself! So, I decided to keep the memories alive and try this again!
I kind of laughed at myself going on about how busy I was with 2 kids, then 3 kids, working a part time job, blah, blah, blah... Yes, I was busy, but not anything compared to now with 4 kids under 5 and a full time job. But, it made me realize that I will ALWAYS be busy and that using that as an excuse to not WRITE this stuff down is only hurting me becasue I don't get to record all of the precious memories that I am surrounded by EVERY day! So, for posterity sake... I post...
To be quite honest, Craig and I are hoping and praying for some change this year. No, not Obama's change... but a lift in our spirits, change in our lives, kick in our pants, etc. from 2009. When we moved back to Tulsa in September of 2008, we expected everything to work out beautifully! After all, we ended up back here only after REALLY trying to follow the Lord! So, of course, with moving back home and feeling very much in God's will, it had to go off like a well rehearsed musical, right? Wrong! The day after we moved in, we thought I was miscarrying and then found out about the high risk pregnancy on the first day of Craig's job and a week before I was to start my "new" job fulltime. Though it was a blessing that the baby was fine, but the stress of being on "semi-bedrest" with 3 small kids a fulltime job and a house to move into made me crazy even still. That is how it started and we spent the next 15 months trying to get things in order and fight battle after battle and make sense of our life here in this town we both love... but we are just now starting to come out of the clouds. I could go into the details, but won't. So many times during this last year I have cried and cried and asked "why Lord why?" I've learned to have compassion and tried to understand that when someone is going through a "funk" it is better to just let them be funky than to try to solve problems! But I'm a fixer and I want everyone to be happy, so that just didn't work for me. And I had 4 kids to take care of and a life to live... I don't have time for funk... And, one more thing, what reason, EXACTLY, do we have to be funky about? We have 4 healthy beautiful children (when so many cannot even have 1) and we both have amazingly good and stable jobs (when so many don't) and I could go on and on. We are amazingly blessed far beyond what we deserve... So, what is the matter now? Ok, I'm done with that last venting fit! :) I think the biggest issue was that we were missing being a part of a church family. That was such a part of our lives in AR that it was hard to come here and have that stripped away so suddenly. And then with nothing to replace it. We are just now (hopefully) finding what will be our church home.
I am pretty sure that things have been on the upswing for the last several months now. Praise God! Thank you for answering my MANY, MANY prayers! We had a good fall, holidays and new years with lots of good plans for 2010. We are through having babies and made sure of that. 2010 will be my first year to not be pregnant at all since 2002. Yeah me!!! I feel like we are starting a new chapter of our lives and am so excited!
The kids are amazing and everytime I get upset or stressed out, I am reminded the very next moment of how BLESSED we are. And each one of them brings me joy every day in their own little ways! Emma will be 6 in April and I just can't belive it! She is growing into such a pretty girl. She is so full of personality and loves to talk. She loves to do crafts and draw. She is in Kindergarten at Metro Christian and loves it! She is learning to read and she loves to make books out of paper and my stapler. She is so creative and a great big sister! Gracie just thinks the world of her and Emma loves to just play with her for hours. Noah will be 4 at the end of this month and he and Emma have become the best of friends and play together very well. Noah loves his big sister's imagination and all the games and make-believe scenarios that she can come up with. He just plays right along and fills whatever role of her imaginary play she will let him. He is our most sensitive one with fragile feelings. He still gets up at about 5:30 everyday. He is a BIG daddy's boy, most likely due to the fact that he gets a couple hours of daddy's attention all to himself every morning since they are both early risers and the rest of us love to sleep! He is going to Metro as well and is in P3 there. He is learning to love Jacob and we are starting to see signs that they will be the best of friends, but they still fight MOST of the time. Jake just turned 2 and is still not talking. Not that he would have time to get a word in edgewise with Emma and Noah, but it would be nice if he would try. We are getting ready to start speech therapy to help things along though the docs are not worried about him at all and his development is right on target or advanced in every other area. The ENT said this was amazingly common for boys in large families with an older sister. Imagine that! Jake is my sweetie though. He had a really hard year too. With the new baby and move and all that. But he is coming out of it and learning to not throw fits and instead give hugs and kisses. He is such a smartie and tries to tell me so many things but they just come out as the cutest jiberish I have ever heard. He even shruggs his shoulders and uses all kinds of hand motions when he talks. He is every bit of drama that his older sister is, for sure! But he always comes at me with his lips smooched together for a kiss! I wish that would never change, but I know it will. Now, Grace is a hoot! That is all I can say. I think she is going to have the most personality of all of them, which is saying alot because they all have big personalities. She is such a sweetie and always smiling and laughing. She never wants to be in a room by herself. She always wants a thousand people around her. When the kids get crazy, she wants to be right in the middle of the floor with them in the action and gets mad at me when I hold her back for her own safety! She is my smartest 9 month old by far. She says mama and dada and waves hi and also waves by while saying bybyby... She and Jake go to the Church at BattleCreek and her teachers just love her there. Who wouldn't!? She is the finishing touch on this family and we can't imagine life without her and we are so thankful she is here!
So, that's the kid update and here we are, the 2nd week of 2010... Here's to an amazing year full of all kinds of good stuff! I can't wait!
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